This is a cry for help. And by that I mean, the answer to my own cry for help, for in the end isn't the DIY spirit of punk at the heart of anarchism? Mutual aid is wonderful and I'm 100% here for it but at some point I'm the only one that can help myself with certain things, including fulfillment of my own hopes and aspirations.
At the beginning of the year I set a goal to transition my online presence to a personal website, inspired by indieweb principles, and to begin weaving narratives about the open web into my advocacy. The point of this is to help us all transition away from corporate silos and take back our voices and our power from the algorithms. This is a worthy goal!!
The problem with goals - with any goal, but especially big ones - is that it's very easy to dream. But following through? That's a LOT harder.
Confession that won't be a shock to anyone who got curious during that time and clicked through: this website was under construction for the entire length of 2024, after installing wordpress in late 2023 and setting the goal for last year. I didn't know about indieweb yet, but the vague idea was there.
In all fairness to myself, I survived a life-threatening health crisis last year that stretched from March through September-ish, so it's understandable that I barely held things together much less making any major progress toward goals. That doesn't stop my mind from latching on to it when I'm being hard on myself.
Near the end of last year, I learned about the indieweb and my excitement was renewed. I wouldn't have to invent an open web / digital freedom campaign from scratch, I could be inspired and strengthened by the incredible work that's already been done in this area, with mutual support and encouragement from others who have been paving the way. Thank you God!!
Which brings me to March 2025, after I finally got my site up in January, it's been basically dormant since then. The hard part is escaping the gravitational pull of Facebook!! There's something very immediate and gratifying about the feedback of likes and shares. Posting on this site feels like screaming into the void, so I think to myself - next time. I'll post a blog next time, but whatever thing I'm posting about right now feels urgent and I want it in front of people without delay.
And this cycle keeps repeating, over and over. NO MORE.
This is a post about claiming what is sacred and good about perfect divine timing. When is the best time to honor my best intentions? Isn't it now? How can it ever be any other time? Now is the *only* moment I can do anything. Memories tell me where I've been, and goals tell me where I'm going, but only "now" shows me what I'm *doing*.
I choose now to make this post, and from here on out the die is cast.
I'm all in on indieweb practices, it's gonna take me a minute to adapt my routines, and even longer to reshape my relationship with readers (who are largely on Facebook) but it's time for this dream to enter the next stage of its life.
It's time to shift from dreaming to doing. Let's go.
